for 2 years I was doing home exercises with 1 hour on the rebounder in HIIT training and then 150 strokes on the rower and stretch exercises for sides and back and air walker was so boring (as boring as the treadmill) so do like 5 -10 mins on that and basic step and weights for about half an hour and then more on a harder step lunge machine, boso ball and gym ball balancing and twister and resistance cords sometimes doing 6hours a day training out of boardem. and then I bought a bike and other exercise machines that I have not even opened up yet to use. its just that exercising at night helped me get into a better sleep pattern after being sick so much and medications evened out. I get down and my muscles ache if I don't exercise. I just feel all I have is exercise, college study and my tablets to live for. I hate the neighbours watching me and want more privacy and I want to put in a salt water warm Jacuzzi as well. its not like a man is going to love me or that the likelihood of work is great. what is there left to do but holiday and refurbish things slowly. if I had the energy. after I come home from the gym and half a days walking for more exercise I am so tired so all I do is study at night because no one I know knows where the best night clubs are or dating and I rarely return phone calls or emails and I never answer my mobile anyway.

I am so bored. so bored bored bored. need to get out more.