I am wanting sex a lot and feel ashamed that I am so ugly and fat and every man I have asked out in the past 5 years has knocked me back but for one that I knocked back, and backed out of the date planned as he didn't sound right for me and it was clear he was not interested in children and babies at all.

right now I am really shitoff about life. I want more from life and I have put in a lot but got not much back in return.

I am always having masturbation sessions to porn and long for a good sex night out.

I feel like I have lost the art of attracting and dating. not sure how it works these days.

I need a lot of committment from a man and also someone with some motivation and get up and go to move things when we move in together and be able to lift furniture or pay someone to.

I am considering paying someone to just come in and help me do some cleaning and if he is good looking get some sex from him too, as there are a lot of handy man young guys who can't get work that I could sure use for cleaning and sex and pay them for it.

so many of my former female friends were getting men online to pay for their house bills and for nude pictures and sex chats and paid for holidays and all for them to go visit them.


so I should too. other wise I won't look in vogue as them.