I had always fantasized about my stepdad, I think since I first me him. He was and is probably one of the most attractive and nicest men I had ever met. It was sort on an innocent love or crush.

In high school it got kind of bad. I really started to notice that he took care of himself well and that he had nice body too. When I lie in bed my body gets hot, I think of the way my nipples are tight and hard because I want him to suck on them, and my pussy is wet because I want him to lick me there and put his cock in me.

Last year I started to sort of dress sexy when it was just him and me in the house alone. In my sleeping shorts and tank tops, and I've gotten a few long stares when I pretended to not notice him. And I think I got his dick hard once when we were cuddling on the sofa watching a movie, he sort of moved away from my bottom after that.

I'll turn 18 soon and now I've been thinking of other ways of letting him know I'd be okay with him having sex, without actually telling him. If that makes sense? I don't know if I have it in me to ever say how hot and attractive I find him, and how much I want to have sex with him. I've been thinking I should wait until I'm 18, that he'd be more okay with anything with me if I was.

If he ever found out some other way and asked me I think I could tell him.

Obviously I haven't thought this through. I know I'm selfish thinking about what I want and not how this would impact my mom and stepdad. I can't help it, maybe I could keep this as just a fantasy.