For many years growing up I always enjoyed being submissive and wearing silky satin men's underwear. They felt so good on me and i loved how they felt on my ass and cock. I started to think woemen had so many sexy panties and so many sexy things to wear and I thought to myself why can't I wear sexy women's panties and other outfits. So I began to buy panties and wear them 24/7. I loved the feel of panties on me and it made me want to buy more items of womens clothing and start to slowly turn myself to a crossdresser and it was so taboo and then I began to chat to gay men and other crossdressers and trannys and I even had some fag hags who supported the idea of me wanting to be a woman and also find a man to love me and treat me like a woman. I ended up meeting a woman and we got married and later on she found out all of my dirty little secrets plus she could see that having sex with her was not working for her or men she could see that I was not a real man and that she could tell I was turning gay. Long story short she began going out and dating men until she would find the right man that could please her and be a real man in bed for her Me on the other hand well I got dressed fully and went to a gay club with a lady friend of mine who was gay but, understood how i wanted so bad to become a woman. We went to a Drag show and I loved how all the drag girls looked so beautiful. Well after a long night having fun being dressed fully my friend she told me to call this black guy up and talk to him about my feelings of wanting to be a woman and be with a man. I called him the next day and he told me to come over his place so I did. I was dressed as a man but, wearing panties under my jeans. Long story short again he told me to come in and he seduced me and Dominated me and made me please his hugh black cock and then he took my cherry on all fours wearing just my panties and made me suck his cock and he fucked my virgin ass and came in my mouth. It was so taboo and so hot I loved it but, after I left him I needed time to think what I just did and to find out was I really gay and loved it and wanted more or did I need to be a man and go out and find a woman again because my wife at that time divored me.Years later I remarried to a sexy beautiful woman and we had mad monkey sex for the first year but, again that wore off and she could see I was a femmy sissy husband who wore panties 24/7 and she accepted it but, we stopped having sex because I could not cum for her or stay hard so we are still married to this day but, I crave cock so much and want to be a woman and I need a man or another Crossdresser or Tranny to love me. My wife is a good woman and I take care of her always but, I need the love of a man to care for me and love me like a woman. My email is kennerodn@@@@aol.**m I would love anyone to email me and turn me into the submissive little slut cock loving women I need to be.