What happened to you when you were eight? Seeing where you are, I'm guessing seduction or r**e but I could be wrong.
What aspect of it "broke" you? That you enjoyed it? That you told but weren't believed? Was it simply the start of a long string of sex acts?
What sins did you commit that you think can't be forgiven?
You say you're sleeping around. What degree of promiscuity are you talking about? Does it interfere with your daily life? Is it an "addiction" or are you fucking for money, narcotics, and-or shelter?
For the record, if one is truly repentant I don't think there's such a thing as "unforgivable sins".
I was r**ed by my foster father for years. I couldn't say it out. I was scared. But slowly I started enjoying it as I became habituated. Now I no longer feel pleasure unless my partner m****ts me during sex. I can't feel pleasure in gentle sex. I wish to be ravaged, r**ed, violated. I am addicted to the feeling of insertion. I feel depressed when I can't have sex.
Funny how been women fell that way too. Men feel ashamed a lot of the time that they began to enjoy being m****ted and r**ed after a while. It really messes people up in the head. You know it’s wrong but can’t come to find the anger to face your rapist, the pervert fucked you up so good he has you in a metal hold. You cope with it with rampant sex like most victims do.
When I was 7 I shared a bedroom with a older man that my mother had rented the other twin bed too. He was also there to watch me while my mom worked nights. I remember I had just turned 7 and that evening he had made me a cake. He made me feel so special all the time the little things he'd do for me and helping me with my school work. I think he was 59 but he didn't work so he was helpful around the apt. It started after I turned 7 and after bathtime. He would some time carry me to the couch and dry my body then while sitting on his lap he would lotion my back then have me stand to lotion the front of my body. After putting on my gown he would open his robe and place me on his lap while brushing my hair. This was every night except on the weekends when mom was home. At first I didn't know what was happening but as time went I started to feel a difference in what he was doing with me on his lap and and how he was making me feel. He distracted me by putting on the music and telling me to shake and dance on his lap, it was our fun time. More and more I like the way it felt me dancing on his manstick and making him hard and so wet btw my legs and tight pussy lips. It go so bad for me that I stop wearing panties all together just so I could feel him everytime he let me sit on his lap I would say can you take it out please. I would sit on his lap at dinner time, and TV time just so I could ride his manstick bwt my lips and touching my clit with it. For 3 yrs this went on, most nights he would get in my bed and spoon fuck me little by little going deeper into my little wet hole but not all the way I Loved It ! Oh and he love suckling my tits...
To the Anonymous from 7-31,
About how big was the renter? Did he get close to getting all of it in your 10 year old c**t? Did he cum in you? While you wrote about your enthusiasm, did he give you grown up orgasms?
When you were riding him in front of the TV, did you ever end up sitting on his cock squarely and fucking on the couch?
Did he teach you about cock sucking and swallowing? Did he go down on you to let you know how good it felt?
