Still Not Sure Why I Had To Give Up Being A Virgin

During my senior year in high school I had a job at the Christian bookstore after school. I became friends with a full time girl who was 19. In the restroom I noticed a small tattoo on her breast, high up but below her bra line. She told me it was a sign that she was going to be a virgin forever. I followed her, I went to her church and took my vow to be a virgin forever and got my tattoo. I kept all this from my family, the most they knew was that I had a friend at work.

Until my mother saw the tattoo. My family is big on family, lots of kids. How was I going to have kids if I pretended to stay a virgin? Didn't I see the problem? I was asked lots of questions about my feelings, didn't I want to be kissed? Didn't I want to be married? How could I not want to have kids? And I had to quit my job.

I finished high school and went to a camp to prepare me for my role as a wife and mother. Lots of home ed classes, devotions to God and home, some biology type classes on conception, pregnancy and childbirth. And a class on being a good wife. Sex was played down except to remind us that part of our duty was sex. These people were crazier than my friend at work church.

My mother made her point. Get married, have sex, enjoy it, have children, many children. Don't let the family down. I was confused, upset. In the end as my sisters started having kids I started wanting kids, like I said in my family five kids is no big deal, I agreed to get married to the older brother of my brother in law. I was a total virgin to him, total.

I decided to have four or five kids, I have one now. I still believe in a virgin life. Why God invented us having to have sex to have kids no one gives me a good answer. If it was up to me I would not have sex, but it is not up to me and my husband will never agree. My friend is a lifetime virgin.