I Still Think I'm Straight, But I Don't Know Anymore

I don't want to call it a one night thing, it was a one time thing that fucked me up. An out of town wedding, I shared a room with another groomsman, I had a lot to drink but I wasn't drunk, he came onto me and I sucked him and he sucked me. He wanted to fuck, he had condoms and lube, he convinced me and I let him. No guessing here, he is an active gay guy and he predated on me.

That was in January, I am still not able to have sex with my girlfriend which I am blaming on the pandemic. If I get into sexual mode I cruise gay sights, obsessed with cock and gay mounting videos. I masturbate to my experience.

Well that's enough, I got fucked and now I'm fucked.