Curiosity

i remember when i was younger i would watch buzzfeed videos almost all day since i wasnt really allowed to go outside. didnt really know much at the time but i was entering an age where i began to become a lot more curious about my body. i would watch the videos about the science of sex and would be really into it. one time i came across facts about nipple and was immediately intrigued. i reached under my shirt and began to massage my nipples. i had seen it was possible to get an orgasm and i had never had an orgasm before. as i did that, it felt like i peed a little. something came out of me so i felt down there and i was wet. i didnt have an idea what was happening but i kinda liked it.

one day i looked up nipple masturbation in hopes of feeling more. i found a website full of masturbation techniques. i started to feel my nipples until i was wet just like i was before and would do this for almost an hour a day. i would get so horny, i wanted something inside me but i didnt know thats what i wanted. i didnt even know how to masturbate with my clit. i would tap my clitoris and it felt so good that my knees would go weak. one time i had enough and i needed something inside me so i grabbed my brother's razor and slowly put it in me but it wasnt enough. i didnt know it then but i wanted a cock inside of me. im sure if i had an idea and there was one i would want to be pounded so damn hard. im wet right now just thinking of it. i had some fantasies but didnt really know how to actually masturbate so id just sit there. i was shy and did have anxiety but good god if i wasnt horny. i wanted to be bent over that bathroom shelve and feel a long and hard cock inside me. i wanted to orgasm on a dick.

once i realized thats what i wanted, i used a birthday g*ft card to buy a dildo. i had learned how to play with my clit by now. the day it arrived, i went to the bathroom to test it out. i played with my nipples until i was wet. i slipped it in and it hurt so bad cause it was really big. 6 inches. i didnt use it again for a while. when i used it again, it actually felt good to have something inside me. i started slow but oh my god it was so nice to have a dick inside me even if it was fake. i decided to sit on it while touching my nipples and i came for the first time. i almost felt backwards, my back arched and i wanted to scream but i was still young and living with my parents. it had a suction attachment so i attached it to a wall and started to fuck that dildo while bent over. i wish i had known i wanted to be fucked earlier cause it felt so good. i was young before and this was only a few months later but i wish i had that dildo when i was first touching my nipples. i would have fucked that thing. another part of me wished that dildo could have been a real person and bent me over and fucked me.