Voyeur Pleasure

I confess I'm a voyeur, or a man who likes to watch. I like watching porn of course and just watching attractive women and imagining what they are like after the lights go out.
I love to watch my wife when she's really steamed up and I'm making her crazy. I have had her give head to men while I watch and that was really wild.
The thing I'm confessing is a little more rougher though. What I sometimes find I'm thinking about if I'm stroking one off, like in the shower or something is my naughty, petite white wife taking it in the ass.
Not just a gentle anal like we have done before.
I imagine her being fucked up her ass by maybe four big black cocks. Real thick, hard, long black dicks, one after the other. Making her moan and scream and cum like a wild woman.
Sometimes I think when they each finish by pumping their hot black loads up her ass they make her clean them with her mouth. Sometimes I think they make me clean them.
I always get to the after part when she would sit on my face and feed me the hot dirty loads.
It's very fucked up, but what can I say.