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Obsessions
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Straight Male / 45
Suicide Thoughts - Skip This If You're Horny
You know what just occurred to me. I'd like to find an online group of people contemplating suicide.
Not the help lines and recovery crap, I'm talking people in the midst of planning that they are going to wait until 3am when there is no traffic, unbuckle, get the car up to 140 mph just crush that concrete bridge wall or post... People who already bought the shotgun shells and trying to decide if it's better to saw off the barrel or not... Just saying, those are ideas.
Anyhow...I laughed at first. A suicide group, if effective, wouldn't have many "lifetime" members, if you know what i mean? There'd be pretty high turnover as each week a new webmaster picks up the pieces... "Where's John?" "Finally drown in the tub." "How about Sally?" "remember she was on the quest for a taller bridge...found it..."
Then I started thinking, imagine the sex you could have if both partners don't care in the long run? I'm straight, so that sad-sack hottie with the rocking body that has no confidence, hook her up with that guy with a decent body who just can't get out of his own way but wants a few more hot dates to bars, clubs and hotels before he calls it a life. Call the website "Final Flings" or "Sexy Suicidals" Limited concern for STD's - of course if there are also loved ones in the picture, don't infect them...can't condone that. But some real free-form fucking... My ideal would be to lay on the roof edge of a tallish building and time the orgasm for just as you take your pile of bodies over the edge...weightless orgasm, maybe?
I'm imagining one last grand vacation. Go to an exotic locale, maybe lay on the beach for a while, take a long hike somewhere majestic...a few romantics meals and long passionate nights in bed...but then before the world can come back in or our own minds can interrupt with the truths of life, it just ends.
My Dr. screwed up my meds this month and I'm out of lexapro and abilify going on about 10 days now, and running on a half-dose of wellbutrin. Can't remember which are long acting versus running immediately through the system...but I'm feeling something.
If you work out the kinks in my business plan, or come up with a better end scenario, I would love to hear it.
Not the help lines and recovery crap, I'm talking people in the midst of planning that they are going to wait until 3am when there is no traffic, unbuckle, get the car up to 140 mph just crush that concrete bridge wall or post... People who already bought the shotgun shells and trying to decide if it's better to saw off the barrel or not... Just saying, those are ideas.
Anyhow...I laughed at first. A suicide group, if effective, wouldn't have many "lifetime" members, if you know what i mean? There'd be pretty high turnover as each week a new webmaster picks up the pieces... "Where's John?" "Finally drown in the tub." "How about Sally?" "remember she was on the quest for a taller bridge...found it..."
Then I started thinking, imagine the sex you could have if both partners don't care in the long run? I'm straight, so that sad-sack hottie with the rocking body that has no confidence, hook her up with that guy with a decent body who just can't get out of his own way but wants a few more hot dates to bars, clubs and hotels before he calls it a life. Call the website "Final Flings" or "Sexy Suicidals" Limited concern for STD's - of course if there are also loved ones in the picture, don't infect them...can't condone that. But some real free-form fucking... My ideal would be to lay on the roof edge of a tallish building and time the orgasm for just as you take your pile of bodies over the edge...weightless orgasm, maybe?
I'm imagining one last grand vacation. Go to an exotic locale, maybe lay on the beach for a while, take a long hike somewhere majestic...a few romantics meals and long passionate nights in bed...but then before the world can come back in or our own minds can interrupt with the truths of life, it just ends.
My Dr. screwed up my meds this month and I'm out of lexapro and abilify going on about 10 days now, and running on a half-dose of wellbutrin. Can't remember which are long acting versus running immediately through the system...but I'm feeling something.
If you work out the kinks in my business plan, or come up with a better end scenario, I would love to hear it.
- That's Juicy! 10
- Remove It! 5
