Closeted All My Life

After my service commitment I enrolled in college on the GI Bill. To help with living expenses I got a part time job as a weekend night clerk at a Marriott hotel. I made friends with the night bartender, a 35 year old Mexican guy. He got off around 3 after cleaning and setting up and stopped by the front desk to talk, the early mornings were very slow.

He invited me to go with him to a street fair on Sunday suggesting I stop by his place after work. When I got there, an older clapboard house he let me in. He was in bed, wearing only his briefs. He asked me back to the bedroom and he got in bed and held the covers up inviting me to join him.

Being in the Air Force I wasn't naive but it was always off limits. He pulled his briefs off and lay on his back, staring into my eyes. A minute or five minutes I don't know, I got nervous, I switched my eyes between his and his penis. His voice was faint in my mind asking me to get undressed and get in bed with him, telling me over and over again that he could see I wanted to get in bed.

He got out of bed and unbuttoned my shirt, rubbing his hand across my dick. He kissed my nipple, grabbing my crotch and continued to undress me until he was sitting on the bed stroking and sucking my dick. He pulled me into bed, rubbing his hard dick against me, taking my hand to hold it and pushing me down until I took his dick in my mouth. All my inhibitions abated and I let him have me on my back.

I felt guilty afterwards, ashamed and kept my friendship with him a total secret. For the next few semesters we were lovers until he moved to New Mexico. It took many years for me to accept my proclivity for men. Not until after my divorce in my mid fifties did I actively seek out other men. All during my marriage it was always midnight runs, one night stands. Fortunately for me I have lived in a very large metropolitan city where I knew where to go when I needed to satisfy my urge.

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