Regrets

My boyfriend of 2 years dumped me out of nowhere, even admitted that he was sleeping with another girl. she's heavier than I am, not as attractive, and I've let him use me in all three places. I am not really into sex, I only let one older boyfriend have sex with me when I was 17. I think he just wanted to check off all the boxes. Once he got me for oral, vaginal sex, then anal sex he was done. We'd only had sex a total of about 15 times before he left me. I held off until two years ago in college. Then I got dumped with no reason, just that the sex wasn't good enough. It wasn't great for me either. I let him do it in all three places though I get nothing from sex really. I mean it feels good but I only cum when I do it myself and I really don't like doing that.

So last weekend, before the holiday break I was at a campus party (unofficial as they all have to be these days) and I got pretty tipsy. Not pass out crazy drunk or stoned but I was feeling really good. Another girl I had a passing acquaintance with, took me. There were about 30 people there including about 12 girls. she and I wound up getting naked when dared, and slow dancing with each other while naked. That progressed to dares for us to kiss, feel each other suck each others boobs. Then on the floor she's over the top of me, takes her boob out of my mouth and kissing my neck whispers to close my eyes and enjoy, just ignore the other people. She kissed down my body and gave me oral sex. I actually came.

After that, she moved herself up over my mouth and I licked her a bit and she got up and sat on her boyfriends lap. Not having a boyfriend one of the guys pulled me onto his lap. The other two started having sex infront of everyone, and soon I was on the floor with this guy I didn't know, plowing me like crazy. I did it, I let it happen, no excuses. What followed was worse. He was replaced by another, then another, then another. I just kept letting them take turns. I eventually went into the toilet to wipe myself off, and was taken to a bedroom lain down and fucked some more. It went the whole night that way. My count was 10 guys, 15 times and 6 in my mouth with 1 in my butt. Then of course the girl. She was letting guys do her too.

So I went in one night from a girl with no boyfriend to a gangbanged slut. I never thought this would happen. I just wanted someone to like me and want me. The girl has called me 3 times and we talk. I think she wants us to get together but it's probably with her boyfriend.