Thoughts About The Holidays Without My Lover

Holidays are a bummer. My lover is at home with his wife and kids, I spent Thanksgiving with friends. I know that he is not going to leave his wife, and if he went there as much as it would hurt I would leave him too. Our time together is important to me, and being alone in a crowd during Holidays is the worst kind of loneliness, but I could never ask him to leave his wife and kids alone to spend the Holidays with me.