Straight Female / 23
Taboo Desires
I think I am sexually frustrated. I think this confession is a mixture of childhood trauma that sort of developed and mutated over time with whatever the fuck else it is.
When I was in kindergarten, I had a friend named Bella* who hid us in my bedroom closet and told me about how her father touched her inappropriately and showed me where he touched her. This happened for a year before I told my parents of this and she was removed from the home and I never saw her again. From there, I developed taboo dreams of much older men touching me and father-daughter relations.
Fast forward to graduating high school where I lost my virginity and developed a constant sexual urge to fuck literally everything (feelings, not actually did it) and reached out to a Penpal FatBastard* after having an online sexual "relationship" for years (at this time I think he is in his early 20s and I am 17), we video chat, we sent g*fts and talked on the daily. We finally meet up in person after I move out of state and we meet at a local hotel. I find out he catfished me and is actually 30 and looks absolutely nothing like he did through the chats and he now pressured me into sex, so being backed into a corner, I regretfully follow suit. (Afterward shit goes down, police is involved as he has c********n, he blackmails me, etc. I lay low and disappear). After all this b.s. I realize that I low-key enjoy the thought of r**e (OBVIOUSLY consensual with a safe word).
Fast forward again a few years and I'm finding myself crushing on my female best friend from high school: she's really bloomed into a beautiful woman, much prettier than I, but is way more high-maintenance and has an outrageously high-sex drive unlike myself who can't really keep up with her. I don't know if this considers me as bi because I only find her attractive. Will I ever tell her I want to fuck her? Probably never. I don't have the guts.
I've recently been looking into being a sugar baby or just enjoying time with a much older man (hence the childhood curiosity) and wanting to feel the companionship and sexual desires with people who know what they're doing.
So now, here I am wondering how to satisfy myself with these subjects that most people call taboo or weird. Juicy or no, I didn't have anyone to let this off my chest to, so random strangers will do.
So, long story short, I want a sugar daddy to aggressively roleplay father-daughter and fill me up, fuck my gorgeous best friend, and pursue my sexual desires without fear of being pinned as a creep or harsh judgement.
*names changed for privacy purposes
When I was in kindergarten, I had a friend named Bella* who hid us in my bedroom closet and told me about how her father touched her inappropriately and showed me where he touched her. This happened for a year before I told my parents of this and she was removed from the home and I never saw her again. From there, I developed taboo dreams of much older men touching me and father-daughter relations.
Fast forward to graduating high school where I lost my virginity and developed a constant sexual urge to fuck literally everything (feelings, not actually did it) and reached out to a Penpal FatBastard* after having an online sexual "relationship" for years (at this time I think he is in his early 20s and I am 17), we video chat, we sent g*fts and talked on the daily. We finally meet up in person after I move out of state and we meet at a local hotel. I find out he catfished me and is actually 30 and looks absolutely nothing like he did through the chats and he now pressured me into sex, so being backed into a corner, I regretfully follow suit. (Afterward shit goes down, police is involved as he has c********n, he blackmails me, etc. I lay low and disappear). After all this b.s. I realize that I low-key enjoy the thought of r**e (OBVIOUSLY consensual with a safe word).
Fast forward again a few years and I'm finding myself crushing on my female best friend from high school: she's really bloomed into a beautiful woman, much prettier than I, but is way more high-maintenance and has an outrageously high-sex drive unlike myself who can't really keep up with her. I don't know if this considers me as bi because I only find her attractive. Will I ever tell her I want to fuck her? Probably never. I don't have the guts.
I've recently been looking into being a sugar baby or just enjoying time with a much older man (hence the childhood curiosity) and wanting to feel the companionship and sexual desires with people who know what they're doing.
So now, here I am wondering how to satisfy myself with these subjects that most people call taboo or weird. Juicy or no, I didn't have anyone to let this off my chest to, so random strangers will do.
So, long story short, I want a sugar daddy to aggressively roleplay father-daughter and fill me up, fuck my gorgeous best friend, and pursue my sexual desires without fear of being pinned as a creep or harsh judgement.
*names changed for privacy purposes
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