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Obsessions
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Straight Male / 33
Humiliation Became Obsession
This is tough to explain but I have been inflicted with Scrotal Eczema from a very young age and know now there is no cure for it. I have tried everything including ultraviolet radiation and nothing stops it from reoccurring. The most relief I get is from cream and gold bond powder. Loose boxer shorts didn't help so eventually my mother began having me go around in long T shirts covering my genitals. With no underwear it bothers me less and air circulating keeps the itching and often pain of it to a minimum. When its bad my crotch has blisters and the skin is scaly and itches like crazy. I do work but usually only 3 or 4 days a week. I have lived with my mom in the same house since I was 4 and as of now haven't seen my father in 15 years. My mom over the years has applied the cream and powder on my crotch and butt crack especially when I was younger. She has seen my genitals so often I have no embarrassment about it. When I was about 9 or 10 or so, is when she began drinking a lot and other stuff. When she and my father divorced she got this house and substantial child support and still receives alimony from him. Our next door neighbors cousin Sheila also rents a room in our house for $800 a month. My next door neighbors and Sheila is where the humiliation began and the transition to my obsession of exposing myself transpired, which took years to happen.
My next door neighbors are Ann and Tom R--------------. They have two daughters, Hanna and Lisa both 4 and 6 years older than me. Hanna had a kid when she was only 16 and her named is Amber who is 3 years younger than me. I rarely see Tom who works a lot of hours and is either drunk in the yard or drunk in his bedroom whenever he is home. The rest of them are in and out of my house most of the time. They all use the word fuck in every other sentence they say, have huge arguments with each other that are forgotten in minutes and never shut up. They all get high and supply my mom with the stuff I smoke a few times a week now but I hardly ever drink and never take the stuff they are addicted to. My mother was always friendly with Ann and when I was real young Ann would often apply the cram or powder to my crotch and butt crack. It was embarrassing but at least she was old to me like my mom. The humiliation began when they would do it in front of Hanna and Lisa or their cousin Sheila who is their age. This usually only happened when my mom was high or drunk. There were times also when my mom would be in Ann's house or out with Ann and either Hanna, Lisa or both would be babysitting me. They would intentionally give me a bath and then put the cream over my genitals, crotch and rear. It was so humiliating I had to fight back tears but what made it worse is when I was about 12 I think, and began getting erections. They thought it was funny but it only increased my embarrassment. They along with Sheila would actually rub the cream or powder onto my penis and scrotum with their bare hands. I'm not sure exactly how old I was but one night my mom was out with Ann and Hanna was babysitting me. She must have been at least 16 or 17 at the time. As she spread the cream over my crotch and then over my genitals it occurred to me how good it felt and for some reason I wasn't feeling embarrassed anymore. It also occurred to me I didn't mind her seeing me naked and seeing her smile as I got and erection.
Its not that any of these girls or their mother Ann are pretty but just the opposite. They are all big and I don't think any of them have a steady boyfriend. Amber who is almost 30 now is a blimp. It I wasn't out of my house I always wore and still do wear the long T shirts, some go almost to my knees but some hardly cover my thighs. I have willingly exposed myself to these girls, now women, since I have been 14. Fact is I don't need anyone to apply the cream to my eczema but still request them to do it. My mom hasn't done it for me in more than 10 years and neither has Ann. But still today Hanna, Lisa, Sheila or Amber will do it and all I have to do is ask. I'm pretty sure they think I am stupid because I always get a hard on when they do it for me. The first time I ever jerked off in front of them is when Sheila rubbed it on me. She only said to me I always get hard but then is when I asked her if it was ok to jerk off. All she said was she didn't care , so I did, and of course she told everyone. I have never masturbated in front of all of them at the same time but they have all watched me many times. I did try to get one of them to do it for me but stopped asking a long time ago. They are still willing to put the powder or cream all around my crotch and ass but I never try to get them to jerk me off anymore. I always ask them first if its ok to do it and so far none of them have told me no. Whats funny and I asked Hanna, Lisa and Amber about it numerous times is the way they see their father Tom and Amber's grandfather naked. I first learned of it when Hanna told me years ago that her dads dick is bigger than mine. She even remarked that her father isn't circumcised. When I asked how she knew she only said he goes in and out of his bedroom and bathroom naked all the time.
I do get lapses with the scrotal eczema but it still flares up weekly. Whats crazy is that these girls still today ask me how it is. All I have to do is tell one of them its bothering me and right after I shower I lay down naked and have one of them apply either the cream or powder. Often there are two of them here and sometimes both do it. I can't believe how they freely touch my genitals yet I could never get one of them to jerk me off. They don't mind if I do it myself but none of them ever volunteered or did it when I asked years ago. I know they talk about me a lot and have overheard them many times. They do joke and laugh about me but at the same time talk about how I get erections and how tight my balls are compared to their father. They even talk about how long Tom's balls hang down. I even heard them talk about how I am circumcised and they talk about boyfriends they had sex with. I've listened to how they talk about me jerking off and how much semen I ejaculate. When they are in my rec. room I sit on the steps listening to them lots of times. They talk about the T shirts I wear around the house mentioning how often my ass or genitals are exposed and only laugh about it. There were times I heard them mention how embarrassed I was when I was real young and said I use to cry but I don't think I ever really did, maybe they are right though. Now I'm the opposite and like them seeing me naked or exposed to them. They constantly high, and drink a lot. I suspect that has much to do with how they are so easily available to do all this for me. My mom is oblivious to it all anymore and she and Ann are addicted worse than the girls. The girls are in my house as much as their own and not a day goes that I'm not able to at least expose myself to them. I can ask any time I want and one of them will oblige or often I don't have to ask them. They call it help but what they are asking is if I want them to powder or put the cream on me. The answer is always yes even if its not bothering me at the time. I love having them do it and also am extremely aroused when they watch me masturbate. I notice that Lisa and Sheila are the ones who hold my penis longer than Hanna or Amber. They have their hand on my penis until I am completely erect most of the time. Lisa and Amber let go when I first start getting hard and just look at it. So now I'm obsessed with it all and even though the eczema drives me crazy sometimes its what has stimulated me over all these years. I know that Lisa and Hanna have taken quite a few pictures and videos on their phone but I don't care if the show them to their friends.
The bad thing is I'm a 33 year old virgin and have always been to embarrassed to try to have a girlfriend. My entire sex life is masturbation. I have bought a few hundred dollars of masturbation aides and fake vaginas that I keep hidden in my bedroom. A few are satisfying but its much more pleasurable when one of the girls puts the stuff on my crotch, genitals and butt crack. Having them see me naked and allowing me to masturbate in front of them has become the most exciting and satisfying sex experience of my life. They must think of me as a fool but have no idea how much I appreciate them. I could care less when they make fun of me and know they do frequently. They are all good to me and its never less than 3 times a week that I have one do this for me. I like it best when 2 or 3 of them are there and as one treats me with the powder or cream the other 2 watch. The best thing is when more than one of them watch me masturbate. I can't explain how arousing and stimulating it is as I cum with them watching me even if they are belittling or laughing at me. They'll talk lots of times while I'm jerking off often asking if it feels good and when I'm going to cum. They talk about my balls and sometime my anus when I jerk off with my knees bent up and legs wide open fully exposed to them. After I come they always make remarks about how my penis gets soft and Amber always calls it a shrinking dick along with other names. They say Tom has a big dick but none of them ever saw Tom with an erection. I know because I have asked them about that. Any how as brash and bold as these girls are they keep me excited day to day and I can't really criticize them for the way they are with the stuff, drinking and foul mouths. As much as I am exposed to them they never scold or criticize me for it. When we are watching tv in the rec room my genitals are exposed as soon as I sit down. One or more of them will tell me so but they never tell me to cover myself even if I get an erection. They are keeping me sexually alive.
My next door neighbors are Ann and Tom R--------------. They have two daughters, Hanna and Lisa both 4 and 6 years older than me. Hanna had a kid when she was only 16 and her named is Amber who is 3 years younger than me. I rarely see Tom who works a lot of hours and is either drunk in the yard or drunk in his bedroom whenever he is home. The rest of them are in and out of my house most of the time. They all use the word fuck in every other sentence they say, have huge arguments with each other that are forgotten in minutes and never shut up. They all get high and supply my mom with the stuff I smoke a few times a week now but I hardly ever drink and never take the stuff they are addicted to. My mother was always friendly with Ann and when I was real young Ann would often apply the cram or powder to my crotch and butt crack. It was embarrassing but at least she was old to me like my mom. The humiliation began when they would do it in front of Hanna and Lisa or their cousin Sheila who is their age. This usually only happened when my mom was high or drunk. There were times also when my mom would be in Ann's house or out with Ann and either Hanna, Lisa or both would be babysitting me. They would intentionally give me a bath and then put the cream over my genitals, crotch and rear. It was so humiliating I had to fight back tears but what made it worse is when I was about 12 I think, and began getting erections. They thought it was funny but it only increased my embarrassment. They along with Sheila would actually rub the cream or powder onto my penis and scrotum with their bare hands. I'm not sure exactly how old I was but one night my mom was out with Ann and Hanna was babysitting me. She must have been at least 16 or 17 at the time. As she spread the cream over my crotch and then over my genitals it occurred to me how good it felt and for some reason I wasn't feeling embarrassed anymore. It also occurred to me I didn't mind her seeing me naked and seeing her smile as I got and erection.
Its not that any of these girls or their mother Ann are pretty but just the opposite. They are all big and I don't think any of them have a steady boyfriend. Amber who is almost 30 now is a blimp. It I wasn't out of my house I always wore and still do wear the long T shirts, some go almost to my knees but some hardly cover my thighs. I have willingly exposed myself to these girls, now women, since I have been 14. Fact is I don't need anyone to apply the cream to my eczema but still request them to do it. My mom hasn't done it for me in more than 10 years and neither has Ann. But still today Hanna, Lisa, Sheila or Amber will do it and all I have to do is ask. I'm pretty sure they think I am stupid because I always get a hard on when they do it for me. The first time I ever jerked off in front of them is when Sheila rubbed it on me. She only said to me I always get hard but then is when I asked her if it was ok to jerk off. All she said was she didn't care , so I did, and of course she told everyone. I have never masturbated in front of all of them at the same time but they have all watched me many times. I did try to get one of them to do it for me but stopped asking a long time ago. They are still willing to put the powder or cream all around my crotch and ass but I never try to get them to jerk me off anymore. I always ask them first if its ok to do it and so far none of them have told me no. Whats funny and I asked Hanna, Lisa and Amber about it numerous times is the way they see their father Tom and Amber's grandfather naked. I first learned of it when Hanna told me years ago that her dads dick is bigger than mine. She even remarked that her father isn't circumcised. When I asked how she knew she only said he goes in and out of his bedroom and bathroom naked all the time.
I do get lapses with the scrotal eczema but it still flares up weekly. Whats crazy is that these girls still today ask me how it is. All I have to do is tell one of them its bothering me and right after I shower I lay down naked and have one of them apply either the cream or powder. Often there are two of them here and sometimes both do it. I can't believe how they freely touch my genitals yet I could never get one of them to jerk me off. They don't mind if I do it myself but none of them ever volunteered or did it when I asked years ago. I know they talk about me a lot and have overheard them many times. They do joke and laugh about me but at the same time talk about how I get erections and how tight my balls are compared to their father. They even talk about how long Tom's balls hang down. I even heard them talk about how I am circumcised and they talk about boyfriends they had sex with. I've listened to how they talk about me jerking off and how much semen I ejaculate. When they are in my rec. room I sit on the steps listening to them lots of times. They talk about the T shirts I wear around the house mentioning how often my ass or genitals are exposed and only laugh about it. There were times I heard them mention how embarrassed I was when I was real young and said I use to cry but I don't think I ever really did, maybe they are right though. Now I'm the opposite and like them seeing me naked or exposed to them. They constantly high, and drink a lot. I suspect that has much to do with how they are so easily available to do all this for me. My mom is oblivious to it all anymore and she and Ann are addicted worse than the girls. The girls are in my house as much as their own and not a day goes that I'm not able to at least expose myself to them. I can ask any time I want and one of them will oblige or often I don't have to ask them. They call it help but what they are asking is if I want them to powder or put the cream on me. The answer is always yes even if its not bothering me at the time. I love having them do it and also am extremely aroused when they watch me masturbate. I notice that Lisa and Sheila are the ones who hold my penis longer than Hanna or Amber. They have their hand on my penis until I am completely erect most of the time. Lisa and Amber let go when I first start getting hard and just look at it. So now I'm obsessed with it all and even though the eczema drives me crazy sometimes its what has stimulated me over all these years. I know that Lisa and Hanna have taken quite a few pictures and videos on their phone but I don't care if the show them to their friends.
The bad thing is I'm a 33 year old virgin and have always been to embarrassed to try to have a girlfriend. My entire sex life is masturbation. I have bought a few hundred dollars of masturbation aides and fake vaginas that I keep hidden in my bedroom. A few are satisfying but its much more pleasurable when one of the girls puts the stuff on my crotch, genitals and butt crack. Having them see me naked and allowing me to masturbate in front of them has become the most exciting and satisfying sex experience of my life. They must think of me as a fool but have no idea how much I appreciate them. I could care less when they make fun of me and know they do frequently. They are all good to me and its never less than 3 times a week that I have one do this for me. I like it best when 2 or 3 of them are there and as one treats me with the powder or cream the other 2 watch. The best thing is when more than one of them watch me masturbate. I can't explain how arousing and stimulating it is as I cum with them watching me even if they are belittling or laughing at me. They'll talk lots of times while I'm jerking off often asking if it feels good and when I'm going to cum. They talk about my balls and sometime my anus when I jerk off with my knees bent up and legs wide open fully exposed to them. After I come they always make remarks about how my penis gets soft and Amber always calls it a shrinking dick along with other names. They say Tom has a big dick but none of them ever saw Tom with an erection. I know because I have asked them about that. Any how as brash and bold as these girls are they keep me excited day to day and I can't really criticize them for the way they are with the stuff, drinking and foul mouths. As much as I am exposed to them they never scold or criticize me for it. When we are watching tv in the rec room my genitals are exposed as soon as I sit down. One or more of them will tell me so but they never tell me to cover myself even if I get an erection. They are keeping me sexually alive.
