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Women Only
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Bi-Sexual Female / 31
Marriage And Family Are My Life Now But I Want One More Thing
I am 31, married for five years, three kids under four. I am staying at our summer home in Colorado due to the Pandemic, it's safer here for me and the children. My husband flies out to Denver on Sunday afternoon and flies up on Friday afternoon, weather permitting. I am lonely, and when he takes off I am terrified until he lands.
I wasn't destined to be married, I have a childhood injury that maimed me, it's noticeable. I was also in a relationship with another woman for four and a half years. I sinned. I know now that I was starved for affection but no man would have me. My husband is a catch. He built a business, and he loves to fly, he met me at a party for my mother's 50th birthday, he is a vendor and my mother is a purchasing manager. He showed me a scar on his back where he fell as a teenager off a motorcycle, sort of you show me yours and I will show you mine.
In spite of me showing up with my girlfriend he ignored that, like with everything he went hunting and I was his prey. I can't say I was happy or comfortable with him on the hunt, separating me from my girlfriend and overwhelming my instincts and taking me to bed with him. He didn't believe he was my first intercourse. Ladies don't have intercourse. I was fresh, fertile, and his timing was either great or terrible and I got pregnant. Hence getting married.
With one on the way he knew I was capable of more and he pushed and shoved and got two more out of me in a little over four years. I'm taking a year off during the pandemic, he is itching for another shot at getting me pregnant. I'm okay with it, really. Having four kids is okay with me. I can do that.
My girlfriend came up to the mountains during the summer, she was able to work from here all summer long. It was nice living with her again, I've never stopped loving her but she doesn't get along with my husband. I miss her so much, maybe she will swallow her pride, see my husband for who he is and accept that in his house he will always rule his kingdom. That's my wish for 2021.
I've baiting the hook, I'm going fishing, I want my girlfriend all year long. My husband finished a mother in law suite for her, including an office where she can work.
I wasn't destined to be married, I have a childhood injury that maimed me, it's noticeable. I was also in a relationship with another woman for four and a half years. I sinned. I know now that I was starved for affection but no man would have me. My husband is a catch. He built a business, and he loves to fly, he met me at a party for my mother's 50th birthday, he is a vendor and my mother is a purchasing manager. He showed me a scar on his back where he fell as a teenager off a motorcycle, sort of you show me yours and I will show you mine.
In spite of me showing up with my girlfriend he ignored that, like with everything he went hunting and I was his prey. I can't say I was happy or comfortable with him on the hunt, separating me from my girlfriend and overwhelming my instincts and taking me to bed with him. He didn't believe he was my first intercourse. Ladies don't have intercourse. I was fresh, fertile, and his timing was either great or terrible and I got pregnant. Hence getting married.
With one on the way he knew I was capable of more and he pushed and shoved and got two more out of me in a little over four years. I'm taking a year off during the pandemic, he is itching for another shot at getting me pregnant. I'm okay with it, really. Having four kids is okay with me. I can do that.
My girlfriend came up to the mountains during the summer, she was able to work from here all summer long. It was nice living with her again, I've never stopped loving her but she doesn't get along with my husband. I miss her so much, maybe she will swallow her pride, see my husband for who he is and accept that in his house he will always rule his kingdom. That's my wish for 2021.
I've baiting the hook, I'm going fishing, I want my girlfriend all year long. My husband finished a mother in law suite for her, including an office where she can work.
