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Obsessions
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Straight Female / 37
I Can't Stop
In 1999 I was 16, my girl cousin 21. She was back from college and that afternoon she confessed to me that she was in love with another girl. She was matter of fact, she knew that her love was not to be. She told me because she had to tell someone.
She married a family friend, lived her life as was expected. I went on to college, met a few women who loved women, I sought them out to try an understand how that could be. I went on to have a relationship, short relationship with another girl to see if I could understand. This I told my cousin, she told me not to play with fire.
She played with fire, she managed to step away. I played with fire and have spent my life getting my fingers burnt. The obsession grew to the point that I refused to be with a man. My cousin worried about me, but in spite of her advise I did not quit. I know that what I have is a sex obsession, it happens to be for young women. Men, well I have to go there to.
She married a family friend, lived her life as was expected. I went on to college, met a few women who loved women, I sought them out to try an understand how that could be. I went on to have a relationship, short relationship with another girl to see if I could understand. This I told my cousin, she told me not to play with fire.
She played with fire, she managed to step away. I played with fire and have spent my life getting my fingers burnt. The obsession grew to the point that I refused to be with a man. My cousin worried about me, but in spite of her advise I did not quit. I know that what I have is a sex obsession, it happens to be for young women. Men, well I have to go there to.
