Makeout With Mom

Who do you tell this stuff to? I had to tell somebody but I would never talk to my friends about this.

This happened recently and I'm still very conflicted. On one hand I'm confused but on the other hand I'm really turned on and that fills me with shame.

My parents are divorced since I was younger and both have new partners. I always spend Christmas at one place and New Year at the other place.

Last year I was at my dad's for Christmas and visited my mom for New Year's Eve.

When I arrived at her place at noon she already had some alcohol. She wasn't yet drunk but an the way there. My mom had a fight with her partner and was very upset about it.

I tried to console her and we started drinking more and more.
I don't know how much we drank or exactly how things came to this point.

When I started coming more to myself I was getting fingered by my mom and was moaning loudly. My mom told me in a slurring way how pretty I was and how she always wanted to try this kinda stuff.

We were both mostly undressed and my mom was riding my thigh with her bare pussy. She was extremely wet and I couldn't stop myself from getting turned on by watching her.

Her fingers never stopped fucking into me and her thumb stroked my clit with such erratic movements. It all felt so good but I new this was wrong.

I new it was wrong but I still pulled her by her hair down to me and kissed her. We both moaned and made out for quite some time. My mom started to get sleepy after she made herself cum on my thigh.

I left without looking back after I came to my senses.
My mom tried calling me afterwards but I just can't answer her at the moment.

What if she doesn't really remember or she says it was a mistake? Do I want her to say it's a mistake or do I want her to want more?