Embarrassed Bbw

I'm a fattie. I am 5f.t 4in tall and weigh 200lbs. I've very big, have nice big boobs (which has kept me in boyfriends and now a husband), I have a big belly, wide butt and thick thighs. I don't shave below unless my husband asks for it. I have shaved completely, trimmed, made shapes out of my hair down there all for him or other boyfriends in the past. I do try to keep any old boyfriends or now my husband interested sexually and like to do whatever they would like. I do pee sex, oral, anal, regular, any positions, stand naked in front of windows, even go naked in hotel halls and stairways.

I'm very conscious of my fat body, but my husband likes to show me off. During the summer we regularly go to nude beaches. I don't like it but he wants me naked in front of other people. sometimes at the beaches he will have sex with me or have me give him oral in front of others. I don't like showing off to so many people. I don't like people staring at my body. I'm really big and I know that and my husband likes me this way, but I don't want to be a show piece for so many others to look at. Before the virus he took me to an on-premise swing club and though I had no other requests, he did it to me in my pussy and my butt in front of people. I didn't like them watching me having sex, and had to stay around for a couple of hours totally naked watching much sexier bodied women having sex with so many men asking them.

But i do it for him, he likes it.