I Wanted To Be A Girl

My parents both worked and I had no one to watch me. So they would leave me home by myself all day.

I was 6 years old boy and I never saw anything sexual ever. I had no clue about any of it.
One day I was sitting on the couch in my underoos and started to play with myself. It felt really good. I was chubby and had little man boobs. I looked down and saw my nipple and I was able to stick my tongue out to lick it and I was able to suck it. I continue to play with my little gerkin. I don't have any idea why but I had this epiphany. I said to myself that I would love to be a girl. I thought that they were so lucky that they had more ways to be sexually stimulated than a boy. Boobs, vagina, ass! I had no idea how sex worked so how did I know this? And as I got older I would sit on my atari joysticks, carrots, and would pretend I was a girl. After I would fuck myself I would then suck the joysticks or carrots. As an adult Im straight bordering on bicurious.

But why and how did I think about these things at such a young age not knowing anything? It's strange, Right?