I Don't Know Where My Life Is Going

I did not go to college, I went to art school instead. I am 26, the best job I've had is working at a Coach store in the mall. All the girls there are good looking and young. I got laid off last April, furloughed but never called back. I live with another girl, we both are food servers and we both need to pool our tip to make rent. We decided to share a room and sublet one room to another server where we work, we just don't work enough hours (part time is all we've worked since Thanksgiving).

Our bed is a double, it looked big when we first agreed to share a room. The other room also has a double. My bedmate is a cuddler, she wants to spoon. I prefer if she spoons me, but she always manages to get into my arms begore going to sleep. I get wet because she pushes the small of her back against my clit and I hump her. She waits for me to orgasm before going to sleep. I don't want to be a lesbian or even bi, but that's what we've become. We don't air kiss any more, we kiss on the lips. For the last several nights we have been sleeping without panties, we take our panties off after we get under the covers. Our new suitemate saw our panties on the floor and it's useless telling her it's not what she thinks.

When I was a teen I dreamed of a big wedding, to an imaginary young man. Children and a home near my parents so they could help me with babysitting. Now I'm virtually broke working part time as a waitress, sleeping with a girl, kissing her face, tits and pussy and telling her I love holding her and telling her I will never leave her and I will take care of her. Last night we scissored and we both orgasmed together. I'm a lesbian. And I'm in love with her.