I Can't Explain It, I Can't Stop It

I have a dirty obsession. Starting about six years ago I got involved with a man I met at work. I am a carpenter by trade and that Christmas season I was working part time at Lowe's. This man is retired on disability and one night after closing he invited me to join him for a beer at his apartment. For me it had been a bad week, my sister sued me because she claims I did a bad job on her kitchen cabinets, my car needed the left strut replaced and a customer complained I had touched her. The beer sounded like a good idea.

We were watching nothing on tv, he dropped the idea that I could use a blowjob. He leaned over with his hand on my lap, he licked his lips and I just let him do what he did. Six years, now I suck his cock, I adopt the position and take it up the ass, I give him hand jobs, I've let him dribble pee in my mouth. Just last week we watched deliverance and I squealed like a pig while he pounded me like the bitch I've become.

I can assure you I'm no queer, I fuck my girlfriend and I fuck her good. I don't get this obsession to go see my friend and suck his cock and eat his cum. And how the hell could I get to the point of bending over his kitchen table and getting fucked in the ass.