Engaging In M4M Sex

After our kids left home we decided to downsize. We found a nice adult community that was under construction and we bought and had a house built for us, including an office for me. After we moved in my wife developed brain cancer and I took early retirement to take care of her. She passed after 18 months and I found myself alone in this retirement community, not knowing anyone because of the housebound nature of my wife's illness.

I started to fantasize, to masturbate to times in the past. I found myself looking online for dates, but I could never pull the trigger. On one of the dating sites I got a notice from another man. He was upfront and said that the best place for him to find dates was with men who were looking for dates, widowers and divorced men. He only wanted to meet older men, preferably retired men. I kept a conversation going, he golfed and I golfed and he convinced me to meet him at the public golf course.

The long story short of all this is that he stood over me in the clubhouse with his penis in my face and told me to just give it a try. If I didn't lie it so be it, but he was sure I would like it. I tried it, I took a second too long before stopping and he took that to mean that I liked it. We went to his apartment, not much to speak about. an efficiency with a bed and recliner. He talked to me and told me what we were going to do, starting with a full on oral exchange. I could stop whenever I wanted to. He got undressed first, he told me it was better if we were both naked because skin on skin made it happen.

Standing in his apartment, both of us totally naked he took my cock in his hand and told me to hold his cock. He yanked gently on mine telling me to do the same, we need to get us erect. He sat on the bed and took my cock in his mouth, by then he had me totally erect, while he stroked himself. He then told me to change positions, for me to sit on the bed and suck him and he stroked my head while I had his cock in my mouth. We moved to the bed, taking up the sixty-nine position and mutually sucked each other.

I had lost the sense of time, we had been there for a long time. His hands had touched me everywhere and he had kissed my nipples and told me that when we agreed to kiss mouth to mouth we would be more than halfway there. He fingered me, telling me to lay still and enjoy. He had creams which he warmed up first and while he stroked me with one hand he fingered and played with my anus. It was clear but not said that he was going to be the one on top, I had resigned myself to that and when it happened I surrendered to it entirely.

He and I have a friendship with benefits, he comes to my house where we can play golf, and spend time together. I don't kid myself, it is sex. He likes me well enough and it is sex for him too. It's different, being the passive partner to a man, helps me understand the submissive role of women in sex. It is satisfying in a whole new way. I truly enjoy sex that way, both the penetration itself and the completion too. I have developed a strong desire for performing oral sex, getting him to completion. I tried and in a rather dirty way having him ejaculate in my mouth and face. Again a submissive act, but quite enjoyable really knowing I can make him reach orgasm like that.

I cum often, but it is generally in his hand or sometimes when he is performing oral sex on me, but a lot of times when I am face down on the towel and he is performing sex on me.

I thought I would come clean about this, at least put it out there. It is sex, not some sort of later in the day homosexual thing.