Not Gay

In a state that was in pretty much total lockdown for almost all of a year. My sex life was cut off while I'm in my prime. I was dating three girls and fucking them, though one was a bust as a fuck, but was great fun to date. They all ended up locking in, going to their families or in one case having another guy move in with her, all during the lockdown. I couldn't get anyone to come over, and I was getting nowhere with any women in my building.

I had met C in the laundry room in the building. Masked up and distanced, we chatted a lot, to make it short, I ended up having m2m sex with him. He was gay, though had made it a couple of times with women. I never found men attractive, but he does have a great body, he likes mine and we have sex together. Never having had any kind of sex with a guy, the first time we blew each other, and within a few days of having oral, I was on my belly with him on top of me fucking my formerly virgin ass. He would jack me off while fucking me, sometimes I jacked off during it. I fucked him sometimes, but the norm was that he was the top and I the bottom. When he fucked me in missionary position, he would suck on my nipples which I found were very sensitive and liked the attention, and most weird; I actually came from getting fucked. Not shooting out of my cock, though my cock would get hard, I tensed up in my lower belly and spasmed, again and again. It got to where he would fuck me for an hour straight without cumming in me until I'd had at least 4 of those spasming orgasms in my belly. Then I'd feel him jam his big cock into me and shoot his jets of sperm into my butt.

I am pretty loose back there now, it's been almost a year of getting fucked in my ass once to 3 times a day. I love the feeling, I love the spasm orgasms, I love getting fucked, and on weekends I dress enfemme for him both in outer clothes and in lingerie. The problem arose when he proposed to me. He had a ring and everything. I was shocked, I had no idea, and I wanted nothing to do with a situation like this. He'd been saying he loved me for months, and I would never say it back.

I hated doing it, but I had to say no. Now that the lockdown is easing up, I'm fucking the super hot girl that isn't that good a fuck again. Yes, I was still letting him fuck me, but he didn't know I was seeing the girl. I told him that even though I had sex with him, and I liked having sex with him and would continue if he wanted to do so - I am straight. I may be a straight guy who really liked getting fucked and even sucking, but I really did it as a way to get off, not to get married to another guy. As it is, I had to admit to the girl that during the lockdown I let a guy fuck me, because she was always blowing me and sticking a finger (now 3 fingers) into my butthole.

Yes I have sex with another guy, and that makes me bi, but my preference? I'm straight and can fuck pussy again.