The Gay Inside Of Me

To my best memory I first focused on another boy's penis in the changing room after swim practice. We were in the sixth grade. He was everyone's cool kid, the best swimmer on our team, blonde with clue eyes. He had pubes, unlike me. I was a late bloomer. In any event I stared at his penis and he caught me and pushed his penis against my mouth. He demanded I open my mouth, and he stuck his penis in. Just for a second, but other boys were watching and it became common knowledge that I liked to suck dick.

Our music teacher heard, he started to pay attention to me, I played piccolo and he insisted I needed after school tutoring. One tutoring session he touched my pants, feeling touch. On another occasion he patted and grabbed my behind. He put his hand around my shoulder hugging me, kissing my forehead. And one afternoon in the band office he told me he heard I liked putting a boy's penis in my mouth, and if that was true. He asked me to show him what I did, I sat in the chair and he stood in front of me and put his penis in my mouth. He held my head and he got hard and kept his penis in my mouth and I licked it and swallowed my spit sucking on his dick. I liked it, he saw I liked it and he let me like it until I went to junior high.

I had a wet dream, of his penis in my mouth. I masturbated after that to his penis. I watched men in urinals, but didn't go beyond that. During the summer before college I helped a widow empty her garage so she could sell her house. I found a box of Playgirl magazines and a true to life penis dildo. I kept those, hid them and took them to college. If I was alone I went through the magazines dreaming of those penis pictures. When I moved off campus I had my own room, I masturbated daily to the penis in my mind and the penis in the magazines. I had heard about KY jelly, and I found some in sex store and I started using the dildo. I masturbated almost every day and spent a lot of time with the dildo.

My first job was in internal audit for a heavy equipment rental company. I travelled 75% of the time both in state and out of state, most often with a fellow auditor. In time I was trained and I went alone, I was buying mail order gay magazines and I took my dildo with me and masturbated in hotel rooms. In Jacksonville, Florida the store manager invited me to dinner. He took me to strip joint. Noticing my lack of interest he took me to a gay club. He took me back to his trailer park and I sucked his dick, this time for real. He used a condom and lube and I got fucked for the first time.

I'm a habitual masturbator, to this day I masturbate to my music teacher. I have an extensive collection of gay porn magazines and stills. I don't care for internet porn, I like holding the picture in my hands. I go to gay clubs, sometimes I meet men at odd places, I'm a confirmed bottom and I only have sex with older adult men. That's me in a nut shell, a faggot queer.

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by Anonymous on Mar 30, 2021 at 6:26 AM

Matt we have alot in common I'm a total bottom I wish I could live out of the closet though

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by Anonymous on Mar 30, 2021 at 7:48 AM

Me too! I was fascinated with an older boy's cock when I was in 4th grade and he was taking me to the swimming pool. Mom paid him for watching me and taking me swimming etc. He too pushed his cock into my mouth and I gagged on his gusher of a cup load. I didn't want to do that anymore and somewhat reluctantly agreed to my first ass fuck. Using spit as lube I was on my stomach without my boy shorts, smooth gangly legs spread wide and my underpants hastily yanked aside being boipussy fucked behind the pools locker room. It's a little funny because my mom was paying him to look after her boy's ass. After a little while I was quite the precocious boyc**t of a fuck and my tight little perfect ass tried to bite off a few teenage boycocks by gripping them tight as we fucked.

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