Struggling With Rebound Sex Addiction

Right after I graduated I married a guy I met on the internet. I got an STD, he accused me. Being young and scared I asked my department manager for help. She told me to stay away from him, he probably didn't even get checked. She also told me to ditch him and sent me to our corporate attorney for a recommendation of a divorce lawyer.

I hired this lawyer, for a flat 500 dollars. He sent this PI to follow my husband and came back with pictures of him giving a fireman a blowjob. Further investigation showed he was working parking cars at a restaurant, he was bringing money home by charging men for sex. The case was watertight but he refused to give me a divorce unless I paid him.

Recovering from the whole affair I ended up under a man I met at the complex I moved to after the divorce. I went crazy in love, he not so much. I ended up alone again after he moved from the complex. I didn't keep a count but it was a couple dozen one night stands before another girl took me to see her therapist.

The picture of my exhusband sucking a man's dick is still in my head. I'm in therapy, I've been clean for seven months. I look at girls and ask why not. I am a poor masturbator, I need to feel a man's arms around me. I'm just lucky it wasn't AIDS my husband gave me. My current fantasy is my work friend's husband.