TO MUCH TO TAKE

I'm about to burst. I have to confess to someone. Here goes:- I've watched porn all my life. It's drawn me to many genres but none that has taken me over like this!!!! I want to pleasure a shemale with my mouth. A femboi, tranny even a gay male will do. My mind is so consumed, with thoughts of cock. Someone out there tell me what to do, please. Can it be reversed or will cock own me for ever?