Straight Guy

I am a mature, straight male in a long-term, monogamous hetero relationship. But I will admit to spending time looking at gay porn on line. Specifically, I look at teen twink porn...smooth guys in their late teens and early twenties who masturbate on video. The real confession is that I have this HARD recurring fantasy about sucking a young man off and having him reciprocate, and I often masturbate to this fantasy.

And while I have never tried to find anyone online, I will be brutally honest that if I could find a young man in my area that was looking for an older, father-type...I'm not sure I could say 'no' to a situation like that. Or at least giving it a try.

After I'm done masturbating, though, I always feel pretty ashamed for my thoughts...not for the gay aspect of it, but because of the 'age' difference.