Cock Cravin'

This was 1995 and I was a 39 yr old divorced tall, slim male at the time .I had lived an outwardly straight life and been married .In my mind I felt lots of gay desires but had not acted on them .Often when I was with a woman having sex or when masturbating I would picture a man in order to orgasm .I especially found older men sexually attractive .I thought it was pretty harmless until I started becoming more and more fascinated with the idea of gay sex.

At that time I was living in aa hi-rise apartment building that had an adult video store at the bottom floor .I started renting adult porn videos quickly shifting to gay porn as those videos turned me on more seeing all the hard cocks in action .I became addicted and began watching gay porn 3-4x a week. I noticed myself checking out men especially middle aged and senior gents more and more in public especially their bulges and imaging myself pleasing them .One lazy Sunday afternoon I was renting a gay porn there when I white haired man in line behind me commented that the cover looked hot .As I was walking to the exit he whispered in my ear that we should watch it together at his place on a higher floor than my apartment. His suggestion made my cock incredibly hard and I quietly followed him to the elevator .I could see he was around 70 tall like me with a bit of a belly ,glasses and white moustache .I liked his look and wondered how this would progress.

He told me his name was Frank and he was gay and wondered if I was gay as well .I said I was not sure and he smiled and said well let's find out then .We sat on the couch and he put the movie in his VCR .I was soon enjoying some cocksucking action on the screen and felt a mounting lust. Frank had slipped his pants off beside me and was stroking a six inch or so stiffening cut cock with a nice head on it .I took off my pants and undies and was stroking my slightly bigger circumsized cock. Frank soon had his hand on my cock caressing it gently which felt amazing. He bent down and engulfed my cock in his willing mouth guiding it in with his hand .I almost came as his mouth felt sooo good. He slowed down but it was not long before I exploded in his mouth as he gobbled all my cum greedily and swallowed it contentedly .I thanked him for the amazing blowjob and we chatted for awhile. I got horny again and this time I wanted to feel and suck his cock like he did me. I got on my knees as he guided my head down gently .His cock felt real sexy in my hand then my mouth as my lips greedily wrapped around the head .I felt a need to please him based on years of repressed desire .I sucked him like a man possessed and he rewarded me eventually with his creamy load which I took completely down my throat.

After this afternoon I began dropping by his place regularly for gay sex and gay porn on the TV. Soon we progressed to kissing passionately and sleepovers. I slept over on weekends and in bed gradually became receptive to his cock in my ass as well. He rimmed me a lot and used toys so I was ready for his cock the day he fucked me and it never hurt at all .I got used to riding him or taking it doggy style after sucking him hard .He still sucked or masturbated me after but our routine was him having the first orgasm. We were lovers for 10 years then I had to move to another city. Almost immediately I had a new male lover in the new city having gone to a gay bar and hooking up with another senior gay guy. This gent was chubby and very oral so we primarily kissed and blew each other .He had some health issues after a few years and declined quite a bit so I departed as his family took care of him .By this point I was so addicted to sex with a man and cock that I never went long without .I knew I was completely gay at this point and never going back to women .My current lover is the owner of this duplex and rent out .He lives in one of the units and is 72.He is a tall bearded guy with muscular arms with a cock around my length but thicker .I am very used to taking all of his cock in my ass or mouth and love how it squirts inside me .He is a total top and will masturbate me but my job is to receive his cock and make sure he is sexually satisfied. He makes sure my rent is low as he refers to me as his bottom.