Now That I'm Pregnant I Feel Like This Has Always Been My Destiny

I am a 29 year old pregnant lesbian by my first cousin. I went to my father's funeral and my cousin got on my case because of my orientation. He got his hands inside my dress and pulled my panties down and got on me until he came in me. I am pregnant because of it.

It wasn't unpleasant. Since we were kids he has always lorded it over me so this wasn't any difference. When we were at birthday parties he made me serve him his cake and ice cream. When we were teens he made me make his bed. He made me hand wash his underwear after he masturbated in them. He got on my back and dry humped me. Basically I have been his slave all my life. Fucking me to get me to acknowledge him and getting me pregnant makes sure he is and always will be in charge of my life.

I don't have any negative feelings about being pregnant. It's okay, Just no periods. I don't have a partner right now so no explaining anything there. I intend to breast feed, If I'm going to be a mom then I'm going full in. I have a job but I will quit before the baby is born and move in with my mother. Now that my father is gone, there is room enough for me and a new baby will give my mother someone to fawn over.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I feel I am living out something I always knew would happen. Since I was a little girl I knew my cousin was going to be the father of my kids, then my wires got crossed and I thought that maybe I would never have kids.