Wife Doesn't Know

I am very bi curious. And, of course, my wife doesn't know. About a month ago, I met with another woman where I bought a freshly worn thong from her. It smelt amazing! As I was sniffing it, a c**t hair from the seller slipped into my mouth. God, it was amazing. I just washed it last week, but have worn it numerous times. I keep it hid from my wife, of course, for my own pleasure, and to show off for other men online. It's been a couple months since I've had sex with my wife, and it's really getting to me. I have caught myself having sex chat with other men and women online, and even went and sit outside a guy's apartment ready to go in and suck my first cock. I chickened out, however. Told the guy that my wife called and needed me home. I am about to the point I wanna start r****g my wife when I want pussy. I don't want to go that far, but I'm tired of jerking off all the damn time. Fuck, I need help.