I Have A Potentially Life-ruining Exhibitionist Fantasy.

I've always had a bit of an exhibitionist kink, but due to obvious reasons never partook in it. However recently I've been fantasizing about being filmed and it getting leaked online, or even sent directly to people I know (specifically those who I know have been, or are attracted to me). Obviously, if this were to actually happen it would completely ruin my life, but I just can't stop thinking about it, how those people would react to seeing me in that state... I wish there was a "safe" way to partake in this fantasy, but unfortunately, it will just have to remain that: a fantasy.