Another Oral Adventure

So I was settling in for the evening (wife was out) when I got a message from a guy I’ve blown before; he was looking to get his cock sucked. He is completely straight, so there is not expectation that he will blow me- I just service him. I met him in a parking lot near my house, and got in his car. I started to give him road head while he was driving , sucking his soft cock until it grew erect and hard. We drove around in a rural area, while I sucked him . Finally, he pulled off next to a corn field and stopped. He put the seat back, and I continued to suck his dick and lick his balls. Near the end, he got very hard as I sucked, and I knew it would not be long. With a shout, he emptied his balls in my mouth, I could feel his cum shooting into my mouth. I continued to suck until he was finished, then swallowed his load. He offered me a wet wipe and took me back to my car. I was settles back home within an hour.
Sucking cock is humiliating, I don’t know why I love it so much. There you are with another man’s dick in your mouth, sucking his cock, licking his sweaty balls, and finally
( the ultimate humiliation) swallowing his cum. I’ve got to stop degrading myself like this…