Roll Playing

First of all let me say that sex has been an important part of my life. As a teen and later young adult I was very active sexually with more than one girl. Sex was pretty much plain vanilla. Then I met a girl named Hellen. Hellen was wild, she liked sex and she liked it 'rough'. Forced sex. I was uncomfortable with that, but she had me by the short hairs. Slowly, trial and error, for me to get used to forcing sex on her. It was a fight, having to hold her down. Then fuck her.

As I moved along and Hellen remained in my back pocket I had become addicted to rough sex, and particularly surprised, forced sex. As you can imagine this had a chance of becoming a problem, more than once. But neither girl went beyond telling me they didn't like it. Both girls were effectively 'forced' into nonconsensual sex. That they liked it, I am sure they did. It was more of social issue.

I looked for and got therapy. I have since then talked to both girls, and their primary complaint was that they felt were caught by surprise. But it seems that like Hellen, they like it. And want it. Just let them know before hand that it's coming.

In conclusion, role playing. And I throw Hellen in that pot too.