Going Bi

Im thinking about meeting up with a man tonight stroking each other's cocks frottage and mutual blowjobs .
Im nervous ,excited confused i don't really know what to do but I haven't had sex in 19 years I'm so desperate
I think part of it is that I haven't been laid since June 2002 and watching too much porn but hell I'm not known by anyone no family what's the harm it just makes me bi instead of straight .I'll be a little cock sucker