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Gay Stories
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Bi-Sexual Male / 40
My Bisexual Journey
My bisexual journey started when I was in my early tween years and had a sleep over with a friend. He suggested that we take turn licking each other’s cocks. I was a little uncomfortable but went along with it. Over the years in my childhood since that time I would have sleep overs and occasionally wonder what their penises would look like or taste like but never acted on it. During my teen years I lightly dabbled in it again with a buddy when we jacked off together but never went as far as touching each other. Then there was this older kid who was boarder line abusive but I played with him anyways. When I say play I mean he would have me do some acts like give him a blow job or rub his cock along my ass crack but I always got too scared or nervous to let him cum and I would get out of the situation and wrote off the situation as me being curious and buried it.
After high school I got married to a wonderful women who I’m still married to this day. I told her what I had done but told her I was straight. A few years has passed I started to become curious again while in the army. Bring in a bigger town from where I am from I discovered porn theaters. When I finally got up the courage to go I went and first time I got a blowjob from a guy and honestly it was the best one I have ever had but once again I got scared and wrote it off and that was my only experience while in the army.
After the army I went to college and was also a new father by that time. The summer before I left though I discovered yahoo chat rooms and those same feelings came back. One guy who I was chatting with suggested that I find a cruising spot which I did and actually sucked a cock to completion but he didn’t go in my mouth as I chickened out at the last second and he came on my arm and all over my hand. It was then I realized that I like the feeling of cock in my mouth but was still unable to come out to myself. While in college I discovered glory holes and played with a few guys in there but I would usually chicken out like before or insist they use condoms even for a blow job. I was worried about diseases and all that while also being worried about what what the ramifications of a bisexual identity would mean. I think that anxiety in that regard was the root of my problem. My college life ended in 2007 and that was the last time I had experimented with any guys physically.
Since that time my fantasies for men were still present and coupled with the persistent experimentation I had done in my past led me to finally come out to myself in 2013. Even after I came out to myself I still occasionally would have doubts My wife and I will pillow talk a MMF threesome which I think is hot but I have never had a serious conversation about my sexuality with her even though she obviously knows about my desire for cock. I finally feel in this past year that I am slowly moving from tolerating my sexuality to acceptance even though I’m now 100 percent there yet. Like now I can watch gay porn and not feel guilty afterwords and I even feel that I could go all the way if I were to meet a guy in person again. The only thing is though I don’t want to go behind my wife’s back again to do it so knows. I know it might not be the sexiest story on her but it is mine. Any comments are welcome.
After high school I got married to a wonderful women who I’m still married to this day. I told her what I had done but told her I was straight. A few years has passed I started to become curious again while in the army. Bring in a bigger town from where I am from I discovered porn theaters. When I finally got up the courage to go I went and first time I got a blowjob from a guy and honestly it was the best one I have ever had but once again I got scared and wrote it off and that was my only experience while in the army.
After the army I went to college and was also a new father by that time. The summer before I left though I discovered yahoo chat rooms and those same feelings came back. One guy who I was chatting with suggested that I find a cruising spot which I did and actually sucked a cock to completion but he didn’t go in my mouth as I chickened out at the last second and he came on my arm and all over my hand. It was then I realized that I like the feeling of cock in my mouth but was still unable to come out to myself. While in college I discovered glory holes and played with a few guys in there but I would usually chicken out like before or insist they use condoms even for a blow job. I was worried about diseases and all that while also being worried about what what the ramifications of a bisexual identity would mean. I think that anxiety in that regard was the root of my problem. My college life ended in 2007 and that was the last time I had experimented with any guys physically.
Since that time my fantasies for men were still present and coupled with the persistent experimentation I had done in my past led me to finally come out to myself in 2013. Even after I came out to myself I still occasionally would have doubts My wife and I will pillow talk a MMF threesome which I think is hot but I have never had a serious conversation about my sexuality with her even though she obviously knows about my desire for cock. I finally feel in this past year that I am slowly moving from tolerating my sexuality to acceptance even though I’m now 100 percent there yet. Like now I can watch gay porn and not feel guilty afterwords and I even feel that I could go all the way if I were to meet a guy in person again. The only thing is though I don’t want to go behind my wife’s back again to do it so knows. I know it might not be the sexiest story on her but it is mine. Any comments are welcome.
