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When I Was A Kid
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Straight Male / 31
Pushed My Soulmate Away...
This is a tale of warning. When I was 23 I was an immature idiot who couldnt think past tomorrow. I was so obsessed with a girl and I pursued her for 3 years (from 20 to 23). She had 2 other Bf's in that time. When I was 20, we hit it off at a party and ended up making out that night. I texted her a few times and she barely responded after. When she did it was days later. I worked out like a mad man and literally everything I did was to get her attention. She liked watching basketball, I got to the point I could dunk a basketball. Not just a one handed slam either, I could windmill, 2 handed 360, and put down alley-oops. I always liked basketball but I got so good that I won our college intramural championship in both the all guys and co-ed leagues both jr an sr year. The only reason I played Co-ed was in hopes that word would spread to the girl I was obsessed with that I was a stud at basketball.
I dressed up as spartacus for a haloween party my Jr year and I guys kept telling me I was too jacked to be spartacus, and that I should be Crixus. We had a party at our house that night, and I had invited the girl I was infatuated with. She said she was going to come and never did. That night i felt so dejected I decided to give up on her and I started hooking up with random girls ever time I went out. From haloween through christmas break my jr year, every single time I went out, I hooked up with a girl. There were a few repeats in there, but never had any type of relationship blossom.
After the last day of First term finals jr year, I was at an ugly Christmas sweater party. At this point I was starting to give up on the girl I was so obsessed with, but fate gave me a kick in the nuts. We were at the same party and hitting it off. We played some beer pong together and i dont know how many games we played, but we decided to leave the table, we were never beaten off it. We started making out in the room with the beer pong table and then worked our way upstairs and then out to the front porch of the house we were at. I pulled out my phone to call a cab back to my off campus house and noticed that it was blowing up with a group text from my roomates at the party saying "It is happening," "He got her," and a handful of congratulations intended for me. One of my roomates who was not at the party and was back at our house with his girlfriend came and picked us up.
We got back and fucked that night. The next day she went to her home state of KY, and I went back to IL. It was a 6 hour drive to her place, and I visited her 3 times in our 4 weeks off for winter break. We dated the whole 2nd semester of my jr year and it was amazing. She was wonderful, but it wasnt exactly as I had imagined. I spent 3 years envisioning how it would be if she ever actually did give me attention, and it was just a bit different than i expected. I also had no shortage of temptations. I went to Iowa college one weekend with a roomate my Sr. year and within 30 mins of being at the first bar, about 11:30 am, I was propositioned by 2 girls to go back to their dorm and have a threesome. I declined (I still jerk off thinking of what may have been) because I was dating my soulmate. Sr. year we started to talk about our futures, and we had some plans that didn't align. Instead of trying to work with her at all, I just felt like I was the catch of the relationship and she needed to see things my way or we were done. She completely commited to my ideals, and I rashly dumped her anyways because I wanted to hook up with more randoms chicks.
It is now 8 years later. I am married and love my wife, but I dont go more than a few days without thinking about how fucking dumb I was to dump my ex. She is engaged now, but I still dream about her atleast, ATLEAST once a week. Im 99% sure that she was my soulmate but I just was an idiot, closed minded, horny as hell, fucktard that blew it... I should have spent those 3 years in pursuit of her going wild, but I spent all that time obsessed with her. Then I got her and decided it was time to go wild after and pushed her away.
So warning to all you young gymrat bulls, if you find a woman that brings out your wild primal nature, or causes you to drive for greatness, stay with her. hooking up with hundreds of hot randos doesnt beat out that sensation in the long run
I dressed up as spartacus for a haloween party my Jr year and I guys kept telling me I was too jacked to be spartacus, and that I should be Crixus. We had a party at our house that night, and I had invited the girl I was infatuated with. She said she was going to come and never did. That night i felt so dejected I decided to give up on her and I started hooking up with random girls ever time I went out. From haloween through christmas break my jr year, every single time I went out, I hooked up with a girl. There were a few repeats in there, but never had any type of relationship blossom.
After the last day of First term finals jr year, I was at an ugly Christmas sweater party. At this point I was starting to give up on the girl I was so obsessed with, but fate gave me a kick in the nuts. We were at the same party and hitting it off. We played some beer pong together and i dont know how many games we played, but we decided to leave the table, we were never beaten off it. We started making out in the room with the beer pong table and then worked our way upstairs and then out to the front porch of the house we were at. I pulled out my phone to call a cab back to my off campus house and noticed that it was blowing up with a group text from my roomates at the party saying "It is happening," "He got her," and a handful of congratulations intended for me. One of my roomates who was not at the party and was back at our house with his girlfriend came and picked us up.
We got back and fucked that night. The next day she went to her home state of KY, and I went back to IL. It was a 6 hour drive to her place, and I visited her 3 times in our 4 weeks off for winter break. We dated the whole 2nd semester of my jr year and it was amazing. She was wonderful, but it wasnt exactly as I had imagined. I spent 3 years envisioning how it would be if she ever actually did give me attention, and it was just a bit different than i expected. I also had no shortage of temptations. I went to Iowa college one weekend with a roomate my Sr. year and within 30 mins of being at the first bar, about 11:30 am, I was propositioned by 2 girls to go back to their dorm and have a threesome. I declined (I still jerk off thinking of what may have been) because I was dating my soulmate. Sr. year we started to talk about our futures, and we had some plans that didn't align. Instead of trying to work with her at all, I just felt like I was the catch of the relationship and she needed to see things my way or we were done. She completely commited to my ideals, and I rashly dumped her anyways because I wanted to hook up with more randoms chicks.
It is now 8 years later. I am married and love my wife, but I dont go more than a few days without thinking about how fucking dumb I was to dump my ex. She is engaged now, but I still dream about her atleast, ATLEAST once a week. Im 99% sure that she was my soulmate but I just was an idiot, closed minded, horny as hell, fucktard that blew it... I should have spent those 3 years in pursuit of her going wild, but I spent all that time obsessed with her. Then I got her and decided it was time to go wild after and pushed her away.
So warning to all you young gymrat bulls, if you find a woman that brings out your wild primal nature, or causes you to drive for greatness, stay with her. hooking up with hundreds of hot randos doesnt beat out that sensation in the long run
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