I'm Not Into Graphic Eroticism, And Not Of A Girl I'm Dating

I met this woman who ran an art studio. Art for the masses, for living room walls. After dating her for a couple of weeks she showed me some of her private collection. Lesbian erotic drawings and some erotic lesbian photography. Of herself. Being a lesbian myself I thought I could handle it.

But I couldn't.

I've seem my share of porn, gay, straight, lesbian, BDSM, etc. But these drawings are not porn, they are real, emotional, erotic women performing sex. No models, no airbrush. The average gay woman on the street.

I will never see a woman the same again. What my lips and hands and fingers experience in the dark, laid bare in its real natural graphic self. I don't even look at myself in the mirror, I need the dark, the mystery of it. Not this. I can't date her, she is no longer a mystery. Laid out like that in pencil on paper, for anyone.