I Sometimes Imagine....

I am a happily married man for almost 10 years. I have been in a conservative christian church for many years. I have always just hated homosexuality because I felt I had too. In recent years I have relaxed on allot of things. Today, it is fine to me and I have nothing against it. What made me change my mind the most was that I found myself watching porn once that turned me on and I wondered why? I realized I understood why people like what they like and you can't fault them for that. So here is the skinny of what I had seen and how it makes me feel.

I find watching two manly looking men kissing and having sex to be very unattractive. I find it disgusting actually. The key word is MANLY looking men. I have found that it isn't the genitalia that turn me off to gay sex, it is simply men that look like men. Simply put, I am not attracted to men or people that look like men. However, the porn I was watching was of what I thought was a woman having sex with a guy. He was doing her from behind, but when they turned over, it was a woman with big tits and a dick! But the dick didn't turn me off. Seeing the guy plow her ass hole while he stroked it was just hot as fuck. To see if it still turned me on, I watched other stuff like this. Turns out, I actually fantasize that if I was ever in a place where there was a woman with a penis, I would probably actually suck it and fuck them in the ass. To be honest, I think I blame hentai for this. When I was a kid, I remember watching a hentai porn where there was a woman with massive tits who had both a penis and a vagina. I turned me on when I was younger. That is probably why this turns me on.

To make sure this was the case, I tried watching a little gay porn with men that look like men. Never so much as got a hard on. It was really hard to watch. Fact is, if they don't look like a woman, they aren't attractive, however, it isn't about the penis.