I'm In Love, No Joke, Standing By 'till We Can Go To College Together

I suppose that all in all I was born into a wealthy family, hard working wealthy family, conservative wealthy family. I grew up with most anything a girl wants including the BMW at 16. I go to a conservative high school. I'm a fairly conservative leaning woman. I can't stand liberal, entitled, progressive, girls. But if I want sex, especially from a cheerleader type girl I have to put up with their social views.

I have always, since I was seven or eight liked the same type of girl. Always the athletic, cute, pretty, long hair, preferably blonde, upper middle class girl. The same type of girl the school jock likes, and too few girls want to touched by another girl, and virtually none my age. I've spent high school in love but never dating my love interest. And no I don't like heavy girls, big girls, opinionated girls, bossy girls, black girls. I just like one girl, Amanda, 17, senior, beautiful, nice, warm, affectionate, IberoHispanic, I'm crazy in love with her.

We've talked. She's has her parents who will definitely not understand, not even if my parents talk to them. I love her and a hug is an impossible thing to get. I won't ruin her life with her parents, I love her too much to be a jerk about this. We will go to college in the fall, we are both going to the same college and we are going to room together. We will sleep together when we live together. But now I can only love her from afar.