I Think She's Into Me

So HELP! When I was 14 I got my first crush. On a girl. I couldn't breathe when I was around her. She had no idea, no clue. I suffered. I was diagnosed with depression, bipolar, teen anxieties, all I was was in love. Time heals everything. How much time? No one tells you. I go to college, get a job, go home for a break and run into her at the Sherman Williams store. I can't breathe, I can't talk, she touches my arm and asks me if I'm alright. She smiles at me, says something about hypoglycemia, sits me down and puts her arm around me. I look at her, an inch away and I kiss her cheek, a million horses can't pull me away. She kisses my cheek and says something so totally lame.

I sit at my mother's house, home, I hold my phone, my hands shake, I'm in w cold sweat I call her, she says sure let's have lunch. I kiss her cheek she kisses mine, tells me she never figured me for a kisser when we were in school I was so stuck up. I go for the gold, or burn out. I tell her I'm gay, and I've been in love with her since the 8th grade. I'm not stuck up. Hmmm. That's what she says. Hmmm. I'm not gay. I tell her I still love her, she says that's nice. What do I want her to do.

When we leave she says it's ok if I kiss her. We agree to get together on Saturday before I have to leave on Sunday. Saturday we go to an art fair, I buy her some earrings, she buys me a latte. She says again as we are walking that it's ok if I kiss her. She inches closer and kisses my cheek and tells me I'm so soft. HELP! What do I do?

We stay up talking till way after midnight, she says she wants to come see me. We goodnight kiss on the lips. She says she's glad I'm not stuck up. She brings me a latte the next morning, stands with me at the car. I kiss her lips she holds my arm, I tell her I'm driving back next weekend.