Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

I broke up with my long term girlfriend following a fight. She is the one that broke the relationship. Hurt I dumped on my friend, also a lesbian but not someone with whom I have had intimate relations. She said, that to get over someone you have to get together with someone else, preferably not someone you want to have a relationship with. For example, have sex with a man. It works every time.

I suffered and she reminded me and I said no. Then at work I have this friend, male, and I said to myself. I will ask him, friends with benefits, one time. He agreed, why pass up the opportunity to have sex. The difference between men and women. We go to my new apartment, he insists on me showering but not him. He insists on me shaving it all off, he sits in the chair and has me stand in front of him and he touches my clit with his index finger, starts rubbing. Its impossible to stand but he makes me stand, I go off and he makes me stand.

Still recovering he gets me on my stomach on my bed and he gets on my back and he penetrates my ass. It hurts, I want him off, he pins me down and he works it until he finishes in me. Release is freedom, I jump up, I call him an asshole. He slaps my thigh and tells me that I need to get a towel and clean him up.

He's my friend but I can't believe what he did. But I am over her, just like my friend said. But can I get over him? He's still got me jumping at his commands.