I Am In Love With My Bully

He is my friend's older brother. Their family lives next door. He has been bullying me since we were kids. But nobody took it seriously because I was a crybaby. I was and still am very emotional. I can't talk to a girl without blushing deep. And as for my bully, I can't even look at him in the eyes. Even at 18, I'm only 5'6, skinny, but for some reason, I got some curves in my behind. My butt is very noticeable for my skinny frame which makes me very self-conscious and my bully loves to focus on that. I get at least 10 spanks and 3-4 wedgies from him every day. Compare to me he is a big guy. 6'1, muscular, plays lots of sports. Next to him, I look like a little girl and he loves to treat me like one. Whenever we meet, he slaps my ass, no matter where we are. He also loves to make fun of my small dick which is only 2.5 inches long all the time. Since my 18th birthday, he started torturing my small dick as much as my ass. When my parents are not home he comes over. His favorite thing is to make me do girly stuff. When we are home alone, he wants me to put on full makeup and style my shoulder-length hair like a girl. He wants me to speak in a girly voice and scream like a girl whenever he slaps my ass or crushes my balls with his hand. He brings girls' clothes like yoga pants, gym shorts, sports bras, leggings, a black party dress, etc. When I am all dressed up, I become his toy. He loves watching me twerk and do other sexy TikTok dances for him. Recently he started getting on top of me and dry humping my ass while I moan like a girl into his ear.
I know he is just using me for his pleasure. But I am starting to enjoy it. Even though my ass takes a lot of punishment, I love receiving attention from him. I don't resist at all and become the sexy little girl he wants me to be.