At all normal? I have written a couple times before but not in this detail: I am disabled and cannot feel my body below the waist.. I've had female helpers over the years in the hospital and outside. I cannot ejaculate and sometimes it drives me crazy. I've been kind of teased by a girl many years ago and I miss that sometime. I've had other inexperienced helpers suggest that my balls were huge and blue because I cannot come. When I conf confided to one of them she suggested castration although I never would. About once a month I go through these crazy spells where I almost want to be humiliated. I've had helpers tell me everything imaginable. One of them said "your penis is prob throbbing and huge my norm by normal standards and I felt ridiculous and. I want to come so much but cannot. I almost feel like having someone squeeze the heck out of my whole genitals even though I cannot feel. Am I absolutelylosing it or somewhat normal? Nurses and doctors have said that this is normal in a thank but don't understand how I really feel. Your feedback is appreciated. Thank God I can only say this anonymously!