Gay Thoughts For A K-pop Singer

I don't even know where to begin. To give you some background, I'm 25, a male, and I'm a fitness trainer.

I got into K-pop a few months ago, solely for the music before I fell into the trap like everyone else.

There's this group I started listening to a few weeks ago and now I'm mentally having sex with one of the members.

He keeps haunting my mind every time I close my eyes. I can't sleep at night, I can't focus in the morning. It's all I can think about.

I started having wet dreams about him. Then one time, while I was scrolling through his pictures on Twitter, I started jerking off to him. The thing is, he's got an amazing body and being into fitness and fit guys, I was literally drooling. I kept looking for sexy pictures until this audio of "him" came up. It was a moaning clip that was probably taken from a porn video, but it sounded so much like him.

I kept listening to it while picturing myself kissing him, licking his body and doing unholy things to him. I came twice, and felt extremely guilty afterwards.

This guy is making me feel like a horny teenager and I don't know what to do to get these thoughts out of my mind.

I feel helpless.