Bi-Sexual Female / 20
My Needs
I had sex for the first time when about a year and a half ago, I was 19. I was definitely in love, it was on my terms and was good. Slightly, uncomfortable but not really painful. My legs were sore, he used it as a badge of manhood that he could last. My first time and he was in and out of me for about 30 minutes. I pretended to have an orgasm twice during it. I honestly didn't really care about it, I did it, and it wasn't that enjoyable. I had sex with him again probably a dozen times, but though I got wet and he'd slip in easily and it wasn't uncomfortable, I didn't enjoy it. I didn't really get any good feelings out of it.
Next was another woman, well I was a 19 year old she was more of a woman at 32. I orgasmed the first time, but it wasn't the same loving feeling, it was just animal urge to "get off" with her. I did, she knew how to use her tongue on me to get me an orgasm. I still felt I was missing something. I still see her, we have a good relationship an quite frankly she is the one who encouraged me to try more men. To find someone who can "do it for me" or just realize that only a woman can do it. So I went from a 1 guy girl, through the following 6 months where I, ashamedly admit had sex with 16 different guys. Some one nighters, some fucking a few times, up to a dozen or so, and 2 that stayed with me throughout the time. Of course my woman stayed with me too. I got close to having a good sex relationship with one, older guy, in his 40s who was very dominant and really bossed me around. Told me to strip, to lay in positions, to rub myself to get ready for him. A couple of times he would spank my bare butt while lying on the bed apologizing for not being sexy enough for him. I liked it but it never went far enough.
I told this to my woman friend, and the next time we got together, she wore all black lingerie, was very bossy, and when I mentioned it,she told me to shut the fuck up and take off my clothes. Naked she had sat in a char without arms, and told me to get on my knees to lick her off. I did, she had an orgasm, then made me lay over her lap and using her hand first, then a ping pong paddle, she spanked my ass till it was fire engine red. It was warm to the touch, and I was crying, but she wouldn't stop. When she did stop she made me stand up and turn towards her. I was so wet my juices were dripping down my legs, I was so embarrassed. She made me play with myself in front of her, despite our having had sex I'd never done myself in front of her, in fact I'd probably only used my hand on myself 10 times in my whole life.
I got wetter, couldn't keep standing as my knees weakened having an orgasm. She made me lie face down on the bed and put a vibe in my hand. I used it and came three or four times, all the while she was humiliating me. Telling me my tits were too small, my pussy didn't work well, I could barely please a man with what little experience I had.
Then after she let me stop we cuddled on the bed, and gently she pushed me down to her mons and I licked, fingered, and sucked her dry and to many orgasms. She asked if I liked being told what to do and I did. She told me that's the way it would be from then on, she would say and I would do. The next thing she said was to call the older man and tell him in straight language that I wanted to be told what to do sexually, and needed to be spanked, not lightly but hard and long, till I was dripping wet and crying.
I know have two people, male and female who give me what I realize I need. I need spanking, being submissive, and both lovers know about the other and berate me for seeing the other one. I actually had an orgasm while leaning over her lap while she paddled me. I'm sick, I know but I like it. I think it goes back to my parents. I and my brother and sister were spanked, bare butt, over the knee in front of each other till we were 17. I think I must have craved the abuse and the embarrassment. I finally can get orgasms from having sex though.
Next was another woman, well I was a 19 year old she was more of a woman at 32. I orgasmed the first time, but it wasn't the same loving feeling, it was just animal urge to "get off" with her. I did, she knew how to use her tongue on me to get me an orgasm. I still felt I was missing something. I still see her, we have a good relationship an quite frankly she is the one who encouraged me to try more men. To find someone who can "do it for me" or just realize that only a woman can do it. So I went from a 1 guy girl, through the following 6 months where I, ashamedly admit had sex with 16 different guys. Some one nighters, some fucking a few times, up to a dozen or so, and 2 that stayed with me throughout the time. Of course my woman stayed with me too. I got close to having a good sex relationship with one, older guy, in his 40s who was very dominant and really bossed me around. Told me to strip, to lay in positions, to rub myself to get ready for him. A couple of times he would spank my bare butt while lying on the bed apologizing for not being sexy enough for him. I liked it but it never went far enough.
I told this to my woman friend, and the next time we got together, she wore all black lingerie, was very bossy, and when I mentioned it,she told me to shut the fuck up and take off my clothes. Naked she had sat in a char without arms, and told me to get on my knees to lick her off. I did, she had an orgasm, then made me lay over her lap and using her hand first, then a ping pong paddle, she spanked my ass till it was fire engine red. It was warm to the touch, and I was crying, but she wouldn't stop. When she did stop she made me stand up and turn towards her. I was so wet my juices were dripping down my legs, I was so embarrassed. She made me play with myself in front of her, despite our having had sex I'd never done myself in front of her, in fact I'd probably only used my hand on myself 10 times in my whole life.
I got wetter, couldn't keep standing as my knees weakened having an orgasm. She made me lie face down on the bed and put a vibe in my hand. I used it and came three or four times, all the while she was humiliating me. Telling me my tits were too small, my pussy didn't work well, I could barely please a man with what little experience I had.
Then after she let me stop we cuddled on the bed, and gently she pushed me down to her mons and I licked, fingered, and sucked her dry and to many orgasms. She asked if I liked being told what to do and I did. She told me that's the way it would be from then on, she would say and I would do. The next thing she said was to call the older man and tell him in straight language that I wanted to be told what to do sexually, and needed to be spanked, not lightly but hard and long, till I was dripping wet and crying.
I know have two people, male and female who give me what I realize I need. I need spanking, being submissive, and both lovers know about the other and berate me for seeing the other one. I actually had an orgasm while leaning over her lap while she paddled me. I'm sick, I know but I like it. I think it goes back to my parents. I and my brother and sister were spanked, bare butt, over the knee in front of each other till we were 17. I think I must have craved the abuse and the embarrassment. I finally can get orgasms from having sex though.
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