Feeling Guilty I Gave Head To Get A Large Contract

I have always used my looks and even sex to have the advantage to get ahead in life and my career. I am very attractive and I know it and have enjoyed using it to my advantage in life and it has rarely failed me.

When I married about three years ago I assumed those days where over. At least I sincerely meant them to be. I was already advanced in my career and I really love my husband and he is equally good looking and has a great job. Once we were seriously dating and I had feelings I stopped sleeping around at work (which was something i use to have no issue with if it help me out). The whole time we were engaged I did not even flirt with supervisors of clients.

I don't want to mention my line of work or anything that would identify me if someone i know read this but after we married the pandemic hit and sales got harder and harder in our line of work. So i started harmlessly flirting with the older male clients, and dressing professional but "nice" for the male gaze especially in the last 6 months or so as things are rebounding.

There was a particular client who had a very large contract to fill that i had been flirting and even teasing for a while. We had several meetings and it was between my company and another and I was getting competitive and really wanted to win. Sadly my company's offer was not quite as good as the other and I knew we could not do better. I am not bragging, but it's just true, I am very attractive, and normally flirting can get me a real long ways to getting what I want. It was a "hail mary" but while less our offer was still good and i was hoping flirting would help. I was laying it on thick in a meeting with just him and myself at his office. I was dressed very professional but ahem... "nice" for his benefit. In principle, he was had already decided against us, i was there with the paperwork hoping to pull him as a last effort highlighting our track record and longevity as a company.

"Why your company and not *****" he asked.
"We give better service." I answered leaning in so he could peek down my blouse.
I caught him looking down my top before and i was ok with that. It's a part of flirting.

But then he did more than look. He reached over and touched my left breast over my blouse unapologetically and said, "We could be of service to each other."
He literally cupped my breast and began to massage it right in his office daring me to stop him. I know i should have stood up and walked out. I was a professional. The days of sexual favors for gain were over. I was very happily married. But the excitement caught me off guard.. the thought of getting what i wanted just because I am so fucking hot got stuck in my head and i didn't move.

We sat face to face not breaking eye contact. He was waiting for me to slap him or get up. I just didn't break eye contact. My breathing quick-end not because i was aroused (though i bet he thought so) but because I was nervous knowing if i stayed any longer I would end up cheating on my husband. I was flooded with massive guilt and anxiety that i did not see coming. But I also didn't want to loose. So i sat there trying to breath through it.

It was hell for a brief moment ... I wanted to say loyal to my marriage. But i missed feeling so hot I could make men do anything for me. I am still not sure if i did to just win the contract or if part of it was about just pulling him, and making a professional CEO of a large company sign on the line of such a huge contract solely because i am hot and he wants some. I started thinking about how my companies offer was less but I could make him sign against his own best interest. It made me feel sexy and powerful.

He started unbuttoning my blouse. I did not stop him. I wanted the power. I wanted to win. I wanted to know I could make powerful man sign with me. He was cupping both breast over my bra. I knew i had to take control or i'd get fucked (literally) I didn't want to go that far and i knew i did not need to. I had lured men to my will lots before marriage. I knew I he was into this as bad as i was. I reached over and kissed him so hard, making sure to taste his tongue. Then i stood up.

I stood up to me over him. He was in the chair still and I i did my bra exposing my nice tits right in front of him and said, "I am in control. You will get yours but how i say it happens. I am get mine too, (pointing to the paper work) he nodded yes. And I stood over him and put my tits in his face and sucked my nipples with hunger as I started to massaged his dick
over his slacks. I straddled his lap and made out with him letting him grope me. And after some minor dry humping (his clothed dick against my lifted skirt panties) I slipped to my knees and unbuckle him and he stood dropping his pants as i sucked him off.

He got a pretty good face fucking out of me and i let him see he load in my mouth and then i winked and swallowed and got up off the floor and walked to the desk pushed the paper work towards him and got dressed.

As a left, I felt, maybe for the first time ever shame and regret mixed with being wet and horny. I thought i'd want to fuck when i got to my husband but i actually avoided being intimate and was cold because i was struggling with guilt. It is a few day later now. I am ok and having sex with my husband again.

I am unsure if i should stay in this job if it tempts me to do this again. I love that power over men of power but... i felt so bad afterwards. I am open to advice.