I Got Wasted 'cause I Didn't Want To Deal With Myself Tonight...

If you saw my previous confessions, you know all of them were related to porn and masturbation. And... it was good, it was delicious, I wanted more and more and more and when I realised, I was fapping almost every day, even without porn. There were moments that I was masturbating every single day and when I realised it, I tried to stop and... I couldn't. It lasted four days and all my relapses happened the same way. I even dream about masturbation, I'm not lying, the biggest time I was able to get without relapse was 101 days, but now I'm trying to surpass this. It's been 16 days since my last masturbation. You might be thinking why I'm doing this... I don't want to pass my 20's addicted to porn and masturbation, so I'm trying my best to stop for once. And I know, masturbation has its benefits, but I simply can't control myself. There are moments that I fap only to calm myself, or because I'm horny or even without any reason and always feel trash later. I didn't want to stop, tried to make a limit (1-3 per month), but it didn't work. This.

The thing is, I'm doing my best to quit this world, but knowing myself, it's possible that I'll relapse after 50-100 days. That always happen. Well... I'll try to quit for once.