A Good Wife That Wants A Dirty Man

To be clear, I haven't cheated. Little background, my husband and I have been married not quite 2 years. been together over 5. I don't have a lot of sex experience, was always the good girl. Upper middle class family, american princess life basically.

But for some reasons, my fantasies and desires go to the dirtier. Like, I think about being used by dirty old men, just treated like a sex object, you know?

Well, we moved to this apartment building. Its a very old part of town, kinda run down but trying to come back basically. Theres this man. He is homeless. He stays in the alley kinda to the side of our building. He is much older. Gray wiry beard. His name is Noah. I give him food and money at times. We chat sometimes. And oh dear god do I dream of fucking him. Every single day. I think about it. I think about him inside me. I think about him filling me with his cum. I want him so bad.

So far, I haven't done anything really. I've hugged him. I intentionally wear my tops revealing so he can see my boobs. But thats all. I almost literally ache inside to feel him. I don't know why I want him so bad, or why I want to be this dirty but I do and the temptation is very real and grows every single day.