Christ, I feel like such a bastard. A confused, guilty, dirty bastard.

My girlfriend has developed a World of Warcraft addiction and has been ignoring me progressively more and more. We're still together, but we don't spend much time together anymore as her life is getting swallowed by her computer. She hasn't even returned my calls for over a week.

I spent last night getting fucked brainless by an older man who made me call him 'daddy' the whole time. I wasn't even drunk. I've never been with or even thought about being with other men. It filthy and rough and painful and made me sick to my stomach but was still the best goddamn sex I have ever had. What the fuck is wrong with me.